List

I know some people who is good with insulting someone’s physical appearance because of acne, pimple marks, few scratches, etc. but can’t even look at their own mirrors to realize they also have their own imperpections. I can list them down.

I know some people who can’t practice what they preach. The type of person who doesn’t share the duty of being as a group, but eager to make “rules” that themselves can’t even follow. I can list them down.

I know some people who makes it a hobby of making fun of someone, making them pissed and upset, and when you fight for yourself, you are not a good sport, you can’t handle your anger, you are kill joy, you’re not supposed to be around them. Cool. I can list them down.

I know some people who are a big cheater of exams and quizzes, yet they are also the ones who most likely top the class. The type of person to brag his achievements but silent enough to tell his little secret. I can list them down.

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Not Okay

Why people think it is okay to bully their own friend?

If someone is not comfortable of you making fun of her, in my point of view, that’s bullying. SO YOU STOP. it doesn’t matter if she’s your friend. it doesn’t matter if you think she’s being ‘KJ’—’KILL JOY’ because as a friend, you are not supposed to make fun of her mistakes and failures, but you’re a friend. you cheer her up. I’m not saying it is your duty to cheer her or to be someone she can always lean on. but it is definitely not you being her friend gives you the authority to bully her. that’s a whole new level of stupidity. 

Nowadays, people don’t care how people will feel if they say such things to someone, they don’t care how it can affect her. And if you’re being bullied by your peers, you don’t let those words take over. Be true to yourself and tell them you don’t like how they treat you, and if they left and chose to ignore you, then let them. Life is so short to be with a circle of group who doesn’t know how to respect others. Friends don’t make you feel uncomfortable. Friends are someone you can laugh with, not someone who’ll laugh at you.

Ano pa bang Pwede kong Isulat?

ang tagal kong nawala pero ang dami kong drafts na naiwan. dumaan na birthday ko, naka-50 hours na ako sa isang ojt ko, nagtatry na rin ako ng bagong journal, pero naiisip ko talaga ano pa bang pwede kong isulat? minsan aabot sa time na nalulungkot ako kasi nawawalan na ata ako ng idea, pero babalik pa rin ako at babalik kasi nga gusto ko pala nito, gusto ko dito, gusto ko talaga ‘to, gusto ko talaga magsulat. pero syempre kulang pa knowledge ni ati girl so nagbabasa talaga ako ng novels, kakatapos ko nga lang sa Anna Dressed in Blood, ayun bongga ratings ko kasi hilig ko talaga mga ganung genre. minsan kukuha ako ng ideas, “kung magbook reviews na lang kaya ako?”, onga naman, bakit hindi diba? marami-rami na rin akong nabasa, kaso sabi ko “hindi naman ako ganun karunong pa sa english”, so, ano nga bang point ko?

ano nga bang point ko?

isa akong mass comm student pero ‘di pa rin ako fluent sa english. hindrance? oo ata bes. kasi expected ata bongga na kami dun lalo pa’t 4th year na ako. nakakahiya ba? oo, nahihiya ako. nakakababa ba ng confidence? oo, sobra. sumabak ako sa interview na kinakabahan kasi english ba o ano? ano bang panlaban ko? super baba ng tingin ko sa sarili ko pero super thankful ako kasi nandyan friends ko. ako kasi si takot sa rejection. sino bang hindi? eh tanong ba naman samin ng prof namin dati, “how are you a mass comm student yet you can’t express yourself in english?” mga 100 times sa buong sem yun bes, so yun tumatak sakin. super natatakot ako sa future ko, pero sabi ko “magbabasa ako kasi makakatulong daw ‘to” at oo. dati ang tagal ko magbasa ng novel na english, pero ngayon 2-3 days na lang. pag may ‘di ako naiitindihan, webster agad nandyan. sa ngayon, masaya na ako dun kasi nakikita at napapansin ko na may improvement. so, ano nga bang point ko?

so.. ano nga bang point ko? 

nag-umpisa ako magsulat ng feature articles last year trying hard mag-english at palyado sa grammar, kasi super gusto ko magsulat. gustong-gusto ko magsulat. pero sabi ko “nahihirapan at nahihiya ako.” kaya dito ako naglalabas sa wordpress, malayo sa judgmental na mundo ng facebook, sa mga ilang kaklase ko na makajudge sa english eh akala mo perfect, walang masama magtry, okay? walang masama. kaya sana kung nagtatry yung isang tao, wag tawanan bagkus turuan, eh kaso nga, eto na tayo ngayon.. nakita ko mga poems and thoughts nyo na super natutuwa ako kasi may tagalog, like “omg pwede pala?” mga ganung moments. kaya simula nun nagtry na rin ako. nagtry at magtatry pa. super ine-encourage ko yung iba na nahihiya at natatakot magtry kahit gusto nila.  

gaya nga ng tanong ko, ano pa bang pwede kong isulat?

Marami pa akong pwedeng isulat, mga tula, novela na maaaring maging teleserye o isang pelikula, encouraging blogs and thoughts, marami. sobrang dami. etong simpleng naiisip kong ‘to, naisusulat ko rin ‘to, lahat ng bagay na naiisip mo at gusto mo ay maaari mong isulat. hindi basehan ang lenggwahe, nasan ka ba? at least handa kang matuto diba? sa susunod, galingan mo na.

One little tip, READ.


Shape of You

I’ve also experienced being called by nicknames such as “taba”, “baboy” (pig) when I was younger because I’m voluptuous or chubby. Experienced being rejected by peers, of course no one wants to be an outcast, yet, we belong in a society where we are judged by our appearance, how we look, how we talk, how we dress, our size and shape, et al.

I have read “The Princess Saves Herself in this One” by Amanda Lovelace, and I’d rate it 6/5. It is such wonderful book with thoughts and poems which you can also relate yourself with. I want to share what are my favorite piece from the book.

Society is what it is. It is made of different people with different beliefs, culture, different perspectives, but they are not the one who will tell you to stop, they are not to label you where you should be. We are made to flaunt ourselves whatever our size is. Always believe that being voluptuous or fat is not a reason for you to see yourself as an outcast because whether you are fit or not, let’s accept that this is our society now, whatever you do, how you look, they will say what they want to say even if it can hurt ones feelings. You should start believing in yourself because at the end of the day you is all you have. don’t be affected of what they say. don’t give them the satisfaction every time they see that you’re hurting, because what they say won’t matter in the end.

Let’s end body shaming! Go out and sashay!